yes, everything is just as it should be.
Posted by lune on September 22, 2009
Isn’t this moment the most amazing, uplifting, passionate, beautiful, shitty, symphonic, crazy moment there is? Never be another one like it. Rollicking along in the nest of vipers, we imagine a step into the unknown, yet we step into us, every time. And every time we think, “Oh, it was a good attempt at least, not the real thing, I could never have the real thing.”
I am just going out above the house to catch a breath of wind, let my hair ruffle up a bit at least.
What the hell is being written here and who is writing it? Great Brain Scientist, Bohemian Artist, Schizo that I am. I am That, not that, silly. Words spill, spew, slip and slide, for what – a journey to enlightenment? Seriously, you really think so?
E.n.l.i.g.h.t.e.n.m.e.n.t. blah, blah, blah. Bullshit. Again and again without reprieve, round and round, up and down, deeper, deeper. How deep is the wind? How deep the dog’s bark? How deep that spider crawling across the floor, that dishwasher hum? That thought of potential annihilation? How deep the sliver of moon rising above the crest of mountain, how deep the shadow it casts across the land?
How deep can I go? Oh, about that much I’d say, definitely no more.
The kids are shouting over their supper. I am out of here, up, out above the house, up on the grass, stick in hand to frighten snakes. A butterfly crosses my path singing. Yes, it is all here; sunlight catching eyelashes only at that very certain angle of seeing; fluffy clouds rising up with me. It is all here. Perhaps I will keep going, run and run and run and jump, catch a lift with those buzzards circling up there, fall to a passionate death or perhaps I will go home and do the ironing; a difficult choice and not mine to make. It’s just a laugh really, isn’t it? Whatever, it is as passionate as it can get just to say yes to this as it is, yes.
That’s all.
Funny that.
Who would have thought?
peaceinfreedom said
i love the words that are written here. Your story from before sounds so unbelievably familiar. Its all bullshit. but there is no other apparently. it sounds like the dissolution of the I but thats just because i remember Tony Parsons saying something like that. Suppose the words will flow until they don’t but they are a lovely read.
Björn Clausen said
Thank Lune! Your words ARE freedom. How is that possible. It’s not possible. Nothing is possible. Nothing is. All there is, is wonder, AWE. Thank you SO MUCH for this post!
Speaking of Bullshit. Have you read this? http://sites.google.com/site/bjornclausennondualism/det-ikonoklastiska-foerhaallningssaettet-till-andlighet-the-no-bullshit-approach-
Its in ENGLISH:)
Björn
lune said
I’m there already Bjorn Bear x
OK I read it, Good God, did you translate that into Swedish too?
Yeah, haven’t heard of Jed McKenna, but I got the same feeling reading this as when I read Eckhart Tolle and he started going on about the Genocide and Nazi Germany. Its just another crusade, another fixation and I am not talking about Stanley, I am talking about Brett.
Angel/Devil what ’s the difference?
p.s. I couldn’t find anywhere to comment on your site, so I did it here.
x
Björn Clausen said
Ok Lune, what do you actually mean by – “I’m there already”? Do you mean that you know you are where Brett is?
I can only guess because what the Character Brett is saying to the seekers is hurting something inside me. I think there is still a lot of bullshit that I cling to. You know, like the I AM, the Buddha-nature and stuff. Beautiful things that I love deeply altough I know it’s not true. I am like a small child that don’t want to let go of my belief in Santa. And my Santa is all this Advaita bullshit like – there is no one anywhere who ever has to do anything because everybody/NO BODY already are what they are seeking. That is my Santa and also my authentic experience of it actually being true is my Santa. Are you following me here?
lune said
I wrote ‘I am there already’, only to mean that I was getting over to your page immediately!!!! Quite apt though wasn’t it?
I follow you Bear! Yes, believing in Santa, continues!!! It’s all the part of the story, yes, there’s no you to choose whether to accept or reject it, it just is. You are life’s bullshit, beauty and truth, you are that, you are Santa. Bullshit arises and your duality experiences frustration, so what? Nothing you can do about it. It is what it is. It’s great.
I believe in fairies x
Björn Clausen said
I do my Vichara. That is what I can DO about it. Vichara for me is to look at that which cannot be looked at. That which I can see indirectly “in the corner of myeye”. That which disappears when I look straight at it. That which is the most subtle thing and YET the most rocksolid absolute SOMETHING there is. Vichara is what I can do.
If having a nondual realization means to become one with all the bullshit in the world, well, then I don’t want any nondual realization…. I am serious:)
But I can see your point. It makes a certain sense after having read Tony Parsons, John Wheeler, Sailor Bob Adamson and all these other no-doer-nothing-to do-teachers.
But I tell you one thing I find very interesting. One of the most radical teachers of that no-doer-nothing-to-do- Nonduality, Ramesh Balsekar, have changed his teaching style in the last years and now teaches things YOU can do to make YOUR life better. So I’ve heard. Is it a joke? Well, I am not sure Lune.
peaceinfreedom said
For Bjorn
SO I haven’t a clue but for what its worth Bjorn..
We can always make the story better and you can do things that work for a while…so one technique or another can help you in the story for a short period of time until it doesn’t…
But all techniques or things that YOU can do suggest that what is, needs improving or should be changed. But that thought that things need improvin comes from a false centre.. which hopes and longs and yearns.. Hope is the absolute rejection of what is.
And what is, when seen by NO ONE is perfect as it is.
There is NO non dual no advaita no practics no anything.. there is just this arising….
To be honest i am just sick of all of the crap that i hear..and perhaps that was your story about Brett… when he was saying that the EGO is terrible.. Oh man..More of the same.. Another list of things that you can do to make this better.. Who wants to make this better..and even that sentence is annoying..
The good news Bjorn is seemingly there is nothing you can do. The bad news is there is nothing you can do. Some say..there is no you there that can do anything…Just thought thought thought thought thought thought thought thought thought thought…
By all means people should do the practises, clean out the chakras, go to therapy, forgive their mother (I am stealing from Tony Parsons)..to see if they can make their life better..You don’t have a choice..though you like me are certain.. (100%) certain that you do..
But that apparently has Nothing to do with oneness.
This is it.. in all its bullshit..
BUt i haven’t a clue because there is still an I here trying to get it.. But I just hate BS..
Lune – keep the words going as you have a fan here..
BYE BYE
Svante Odmark said
Yes. And there isn’t even anyone here to say yes. Hilarious that.
lune said
Amazing the depth to it, isn’t it? I resounding NO is quite nice sometimes too x
Svante Odmark said
Yeah, the apparent depth to it is totally amazing. The wave trying to fathom the depth of the ocean… The wave going no, maybe, yes, NO, YES, yes, no, perhaps, well…, YES, no, NO, YES, hmmm…
And the ocean remains exactly as deep as it IS, which is exactly as shallow as it IS.
maury lee said
So fun, your choice of words. And between the words, deep, deep, vapor. (:-)
lune said
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Suzanne said
There’s that ironing again. Keeps arising in awareness doesn’t it?
lune said
It was put in for ‘you’; kind of non-hero worship, perhaps. Clothes staying a little more creased again round here actually, too much snake-thwacking to do and of course there’s the children x
Suzanne said
Snake thwacking! In France?
Suzanne said
You know, “snake thwacking” just may be the best phrase you’ve ever written!
liberatedself said
lol, The emptiness, all that is within this emptiness, all that potential that is the ocean and the wave all together must be having a ball right now. I’m just simply mystified by everything that arises, whether its feelings within the body (especially right now for this particular body) or just thoughts that glide through like clouds in the sky.
In respect to doing and non doing, the way it was always seen from this side is how can anything possibly be done, when the awareness is aware of the doer and the doing, like husband gently watching his son play with bubbles, he does not take any action for the bubbles to be blow, but is merely aware that it is happening. It is poetry at its finest.
lune said
Yes, and even if the father says, “Hey son, let me make those bubbles” and blows them himself and the kid gets pissed, what arises arises, pristine and without help from any thing in particular. We just throughout all of this, think we make a difference, we don’t.
We get frustrated, feel bliss, emptiness, elation, depression, fear, whatever! and it still keeps comin’ and a comin’ at us, without reprieve. And it’s wonderful and crap and every end of the spectrum of emotions it could possibly be and it still keeps coming.
x
msayers said
Wonderul! Glad to see it, Lune! It’s refreshing! And… I’m jealous!
Björn Clausen said
Lune!
Thank you for your answer. I just love your comments here and your posts. This is at great blog. I am already waiting for your next post.
/Björn
lune said
Bjorn, I am very interested in this ‘non-doing’ aspect of awakening, as far as the mind can be interested in it, that is. Sometimes I think it is bandied around amongst seekers in a very haphazard and casual way, well, nothing wrong with that I suppose. What I was saying is that you can do nothing about the frustration arising in ‘your’ life and similarly, doing something about it is also OK.
As all of this is just a string of beliefs anyway, here is another one: I believe that there are no non-dual realizations to be had. Bullshit is bullshit and bliss is bliss, no difference between them really, the I still gets hooked either way and there is no difference between wanting to get closer to it or wanting to distance yourself from it. Nothing can touch what is really happening, nothing, it is all just noise.
Maybe it is a joke. How come Balsekar all of a sudden sees himself as a ‘teacher’ of non-duality? I don’t understand, I thought all these enlightened people couldn’t possibly label themselves as teachers, as there is no one to label. I am confused, maybe he needs more money.
And you practise looking at something that cannot be looked at? So is that a non-practise then ? ;)
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lune said
Yeah, Peace in Freedom, totally,
if forgiving your mother happens, then it happens, yes? Who is there to label this good or bad, wrong or right?
All is here right now and yeah you can go ‘in’ deep, try and see what cannot be seen, but that’s just the same as trying to understand why you got such a huge tax bill this year. All is included, because it cannot be excluded, not even Bullshit about Bullshit, Bliss about Bliss. You can do nothing and do loads, whatever, nothing touches the arising of this moment, whatever state we think we are in, ‘cos it is going to arise exactly the way it is gonna arise, whether we think our actions make any difference or not.
x